We are young

I get bumped into alot. I have no idea why, and i have to say I really don't care for it. But that this carnival it turned out to be the bump that changed my life. I of course was in a bad mood and really did not want to be where I was. My nerd sister had dragged me cause she knew alot of people that were going to be there. I moaned and bitched hoping that I could bi-pass the event. Alas I found my self smack in the middle of it just standing there. At that point in my life I was to important to do things so stupid. I was 15 and still thought I was to cool for the world. I finally caught my sister and demanded that we leave. Practically draging her I was suddenly on the ground. I looked up to see who the idiot was that had just ran into me. It was a boy, younger, blound hair. blue eyes. My sister started talking to her and introduced me. I rolled my eyes and started walking away. And then I felt it, the "feeling" I turned around to take a look at this boy. That the boy your going to marry. And I have know it ever since

Since you have been away

I would always hear about pathetic girls that would get hooked on a guy and plan there whole lives. They would be far into there delusion that they would never even realize that the guy did not love them. I felt bad for them, I really did. I knew that if they moved on they would probably just find someone that would love them and they would not waste their time. But when I was 15 I meet the love of my life. There is no way to explain it or sadly any way to deny it. It pains me that I have to keep it to my self, but i refuse to be pathetic. I am 20 years old now, which means that it has been five years. I still can not deny what i felt and what my heart needs. I have decided to have a secret blog about it because I have to tell someone and lucky for me, you have no idea who I am. This will cover the love and the heart break and the recent dispearance from my life. I hope by writing it down I will come to some type of conclusion, because right now............Its a open book,